<3

naturalrhythm @ 2007-02-11T07:56:00

2007-02-11T12:49:07Z

I caught myself talking in my sleep this morning. I literally had my hand up to my ear, as if I was talking into my cell phone. I don't remember what I was saying. Next thing I knew, (I was awake by now), my dad was knocking on the door and asking if I was ok.

naturalrhythm @ 2006-07-30T20:59:00

2006-07-31T02:06:13Z

for the love of god, fly me to London

I think it was Freshman year when Mr. Ferreira told us (drama kids and techies) about Equus. I remember really wanting to see it. It was playing at RIC, but I wasn't able to go. The play sounded really interesting- especially the main character. Well... wouldn't you know, Dan Radcliffe *my fantasy/celebrity lover* is starring as Alan Strang.

"In one scene the actor playing Strang is required to simulate sexual ecstasy while riding a horse naked. But Davies said nudity was not the focus of the play." ... Maybe not for you Davies, but if I was there, I'm prettttty sure that would be my focus.

naturalrhythm @ 2006-07-26T16:12:00

2006-07-26T20:13:17Z

Is Free Will an illusion?

naturalrhythm @ 2006-07-24T22:01:00

2006-07-25T03:13:19Z

I'm thinking of dropping AP English. My dad is enouraging (discouraging?lol) me to drop it. It's stressing me out, and I'm trying very hard to get back on my feet these days. Yup. I choose happiness.

I didn't do the essay for Capote, so I'm already failing the class. I was pretty disappointed with myself for a while, but now I'm kind of over it. I'm kind of tired of doing things that don't make me happy. Such as trying to read Dombey and Son. It's 830 pages long. C'MON woman. *Ms. Connors, C'mon face* I know Mrs. Ryan is supposed to be a good teacher, but this is not cool... Besaw probably recommended it. In the newspaper article it was mentioned that his favorite book is Tale of Two Cities. I have a feeling that Dombey and Son was his retirement gift to us APers.

My dad's right about one thing- this is summer. It's meant to be enjoyed. The guidance counselors said we're supposed to be having college interviews. Good God. Mr. Skenyon (aka Jesus) said we're supposed to be working on college essays.

Sometimes I wish I was in middle school again, up in my room all day, reading Harry Potter. ... Then outside swimming in the pool. Then playing Nintendo with my sister.

And then I wish I was a Freshman. I remember walking through the halls the second week of school, and I got lost and cried. I'll never forget gym class with Becca Winslow, Maggie Cross, and Britney Sullivan, sophomore year.

I've been doing the whole thinking-about-what-I-want-to-do-with-my-life thing. Acting? Directing? Lawyer? Teacher? Whore?

Dear Future self,
Don't have kids.
Love,
Present Self.

Dear Present Self,
Go to New York City. Fall in love. Be fearless.

I want to go to Rose Hill. I want to study and meet people and go on adventures.

This entry was dull. I think the Dickens essay is due this Saturday. Huh. Maybe I'll bs it. Or I'll go to Barnes and Noble and exchange the books for the Level 1 books. Maybe if I'm really bored tomorrow I'll begin writing the essay. Wow I dissapoint myself. You know what? I don't know what I want.

I know what I need to do. I need to make a list of all the stuff I need to do from now until the end of the summer. Ok ready set - tomorrow. I've set the date. I feel very accomplished. Haha.

naturalrhythm @ 2006-07-18T10:28:00

2006-07-18T14:38:40Z

Body: How old do you act?
Put an x on all the things you can do and find out how old you act

I guess I'm 25. It makes sense.

[] I know how to make a pot of coffee
[] I do my own laundry
[x] I can cook for myself
[x] i always do my homework/work
[x] i actually enjoy intellectual conversations
[x] I think politics are exciting
[] My parents and grand-parents have better things to say than my peers

total: 4

[] I show up for school/work every day unless I'm sick
[] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse
[] I've never gotten a detention
[x] I watch talk shows and point out the credibility of it all
[x] I know what credibility means without looking it up
[x] I drink coffee at least once a week

total: 3

[x] I know how to run the dish washer and/or do the dishes
[x] Well i can count to 10 in spanish
[] When I say I'm going 2 do something I do it
[] I mow the lawn
[x] I can wash a car
[x] I can make adults laugh... without being stupid
[] I remember to water my plants
[x] I study when I have to
[x]I pay attention at school/work
[] I remember to feed my pets
[] I'm generally organized

total: 6

[x] I can spell experience without looking it up
[x] I clean up my own mess
[] The first thing I do when I wake up is get coffee
[x] I can go to the store with out getting something I don't need
[x] I understand jokes the first time they are said
[x] I listen to my elders
[x] I can type fast

total: 6

[] My choice in clothing is acceptable in an office or something
[] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[x] I can look at someone hot and not think of sex
[] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it
[x] People have said that I act older than I am

total: 6

hiatus

2006-07-17T18:51:12Z

I'll be out of the area until Friday. If you want to make plans for this weekend or need to reach me, call or text my cell.

random thing i wrote the other day

2006-07-17T15:14:20Z

In middle school I retreated into my room and read Harry Potter all day and obsessed over homework. My favorite teacher was Mr. Gallerani. I helped direct my English class's version of Midsummer Night's Dream. Freshman year was fun. I won't forget how I excited I was when I got a part in the "Senior Play" or when Erin Murtagh insulted the football captain Josh Malone her last day at KP or when I got a detention for voting twice for Nora in class election or when Katie O'Connor and I skipped chorus, hid in the bathroom, and then went running across the field in the snow to Dunkin Donuts and the Pizza shop. I won't forget Sophomore year, all the hilarious times in TV Production, being part of the last play on the Grady Auditorium Stage, and getting a detention for telling the gym teacher to respect me.

naturalrhythm @ 2006-07-16T16:26:00

2006-07-16T20:30:58Z

Aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Ok I'm done.

naturalrhythm @ 2006-07-15T12:24:00

2006-07-15T16:25:35Z

Everyone is ridiculous and pathetic in his/her "own special way." Everyone is human.

naturalrhythm @ 2006-07-07T11:46:00

2006-07-07T15:46:16Z

40 years from now...

A friend: Remember junior year?
Me: Yes. It sucked.

naturalrhythm @ 2006-05-16T21:21:00

2006-05-17T02:21:31Z

Mantras
You are not a failure.
You are not a bad person.
This is just Norfolk, MA.
You are not a failure.
You are not a bad person.
This is just Norfolk, MA.
You are not a failure.
You are not a bad person.
This is just Norfolk, MA.

Good and bad don't exist.
It's just you and your decisions.
You are in control.
Good and bad don't exist.
It's just you and your decisions.
You are in control.
Good and bad don't exist.
It's just you and your decisions.
You are in control.

Never get caught up in the past
Or you will lose control of the present
And consequently, of your future.
Never get caught up in the past
Or you will lose control of the present
And consequently, of your future.
Never get caught up in the past
Or you will lose control of the present
And consequently, of your future.

Don't dwell too long on the negative
90% of it is useless.

Angry Rant time
I'm sorry, I try to accept all types of people. But if there's one type of person I can not stand, it's the Dream Crusher. Let me explain this concept. The goal of the Dream Crusher is to find out what makes you happy or passionate and reduce your dream to scum. Usually these people are insecure, judgemental, pompous and selfish. It's not the best combo.

For the most part, I ignore Dream Crushers. But every now and then I get tired of it. I always want to tell people how beautiful and amazing I think they are, but I'm afriad they'll think I'm insane if I tell them. Why the hell would you want to tell someone how much they suck unless they are a murderer (or dream crusher ahem)?

Who do you think you are anyway? God?? No, you're really not. Here's an idea, the next time you feel like telling someone to give up, why don't you shut the hell up? That sounds good to me. Because you're not serving any purpose. Your words might as well be specs of dust floating aimlessly through the air. It's ok to get personal with someone every now and then, but only if you know the person well enough. And even then, don't say something personal AND cruel.

I used to shut those people down. But now I sit there and let them be assholes. But I'm about ready to snap. Seriously, the next time I'm in a bad mood and someone is being a Dream Crusher, they better watch out. Cuz it's gonna be a few years of repressed anger built up inside of me coming out all at once.

I just want to catch someone in the middle of an asshole remark and ask them why they are doing that. Just why. Because when it comes down to it, there is no dignified answer. "Oh, I was just trying to help them"- Nahhhhhh. If you really wanted to help, you #1 wouldn't have said that shit #2 would've befriended that person and given them support.

*The reason a lot of the stuff I write sounds weird is because I deal with my emotions in a strange way. First I ask myself why am I so (in this instance) angry? After I break it down, I try to think of ways for it not to happen again. And then I think about how I can solve the problem (which made me angry in the first place). And what I write is sometimes a reflection of this process.

Maybe most people just acknowledge their emotions and then blame it on whatever they feel like. Or they whine and complain and victimize themselves. Or their emotions aren't strong, so they don't have to worry about it. For the most part, I'm not emotional. I try to be rational about my emotions, because I think they're useless and annoying.

Other things that have been making me angry
Judgemental people
Opression of women
Singing in front of people
KP Teachers
School
Worrying

I think that sums it up.

naturalrhythm @ 2006-05-14T01:30:00

2006-05-14T05:37:08Z

My mom came back from dinner with her boyfriend tonight and told me they came very close to getting hit by an SUV. They had to stop the car as the SUV was coming head on towards their car. Thankfully it turned into the correct lane in time.

I was laying in my bed, reading about Willy Loman's car "accident," when I heard a car go skidding off the road by my house. It hit the stone wall between my house and our neighbor's. I woke my mom up and she called for a cop to help them. Luckily, I don't think either of the passengers are injured.

The first driver was probably drunk. And my mom just confirmed that the second (the one out on my lawn right now) had been drinking.

Damn it feels good to be a gangster.

2006-05-10T02:16:55Z

The other day I was sliding across the floor while my mom was installing the new printer. And I asked her if she remembered the scene in office space with the copy machine, as I looked over at the old, shitty printer on the floor. Guess what. She's letting me pull the Michael Bolton.

Here's the plan. Anyone who has seen Office Space must come out with me someday this week. We will bring baseball bats, a boom box to play "Damn it feels good to be a gangsta", the printer of course, and hopefully a camera. *Lizzie*, you're coming whether you like it or not lol

***

I just read the Great Gatsby. I liked Huck Finn more. But Gatsby was good. It didn't really depress me, I kind of already knew the "American Dream" had died. It almost inspired me to continue being like Gatsby. I like being romantic and optimistic. I believe people create their own reality, and this is my reality. Maybe one day it will get crushed in some way or another, but I'll handle it then. For now, I'd like to enjoy my youth.

Everyone always tries to protect you from pain, danger, conflict, and suffering. What they don't realize is they have no power over that. Life is full of suffering. If you spend the pleasant days worrying about suffering, what good does that do?

I've been having insomnia lately. I get in bed around 11 or 12 and I can't get comfortable. And then I can't stop thinking. I think for a few hours and then try to get back to sleep. But by then it's too late. Last week I was so out of it after having a sleepless night that I dared to miss a day of school. Well, I'm paying for it now. I've already had to make up two tests and now Mr. Finase hates me. He's gonna hate me even more when he reads that research paper sllslslslsls

AP Eng
AP Gov
AP Bio
Spanish 4
Chorus
Psych full year
Study

Any seniors or KP graduates, please offer any advice you can!

-The classes I'm definately taking are AP Eng, Spanish, and Pysch. You might be able to convince me to take only half a year of Pysch, but I doubt it, because I want to major in it for college and I love it.
-AP Gov: I really like the subject matter and think my experience with Eng will be useful in the course- I'm 99% sure I'm taking it.
-AP Bio: I want to take a science, and I'm really trying to avoid the whole Physics thing because I hear how hard it is and how much math it involves.
-Study and Chrous: I'm gonna need these puppies to survive.

I get stressed out pretty easily. I do homework, I study, but every now and then I drop the ball at crucial times of the year when I'm under a lot of pressure. I'm not worried about the AP Eng thing, though. If it was AP Chem, AP Economics, & AP World History then I would be worried. But I think the AP courses I've chosen don't involve as much book work as other subjects might. And although AP Eng and Gov involve writing, I think that writing at a faster rate is something I've become good at this year. As for AP Bio, I have a good understanding of scientific concepts.

naturalrhythm @ 2006-04-11T00:37:00

2006-04-11T04:43:25Z

I'm really getting sick of this cycle
-go to bed late
-wake up early
-rush to make the bus
-come home and nap
-go back and repeat

A couple things before I start the cycle again
-I saw Matt tonight :)
-I wish I had more time to give to my family
-I cant wait to quit Bass
-My courses next year are...
AP Eng
AP Gov
AP Bio
Chorus
Study
Spanish 4
Psych

*NO MATH* =D

naturalrhythm @ 2006-04-11T00:04:00

2006-04-11T04:22:02Z

RED; anger.
1. Are you currently mad at someone? no
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? definately me, i admit i have anger issues lol
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? yes many times. i once threw a shoe at my sister's head
4. Does your face turn red when you're angry? i dont think so
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream? stare angrily *evil glare*

ORANGE; excitment:
1. Has anyone ever thrown you a surprise party? i dont think so
2. Are you easily excited? yes
3. What event is coming up that your most excited about? Friday oh and graduation
5. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? finally
6. If you could have anything right now what would it be? go pee

YELLOW; self discovery:
1. Name? Annie
2. Where were you born? bwauston
3. Whats your main goal in life? be happy
4. Do you want to have children? yes
5. How do you want to die? not sure, i prefer not to die just yet

GREEN; opinions:
1. Sex before marriage? idc
2. Gay Marriage? go for it
3. Lowering the drinking age? idc
4. Capital Punishment? undecided
5. Abortion? yes
6. Recycling? NO FILL EVERY FOREST WITH TRASH

BLUE; dreams:
1. What was your latest dream? dont remember
2. What friend is in your dreams the most? prob kaitlyn or katie (i love when kaitlyn randomly appears in one of my dreams)
3. Have any of your dreams come true? cant remember
4. Do you usually remember your dreams? not so much anymore. not enough sleep
5. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had? well one of them was that the world was a ship *didnt look like one* and all the humans were traveling in outer space which was a huge ocean and i was trying to help guide it. and then i fell off the earth and landed in some dessert. and another, my father and i were walking on this mucky bridge over a swamp and there were rotting bodies in it, which i stepped on. worst dream EVER.

PURPLE; love:
1. Straight, Gay, Bi?: straight
2. Do you have a bf/gf: kinda
3. Do you have a crush?: i guess
4. Who is the best hugger that you know?: lol phil
5. Do you believe in love at first sight?: no
6. Have you ever been in love?: no

naturalrhythm @ 2006-04-03T23:54:00

2006-03-29T05:19:23Z

Is it weird that I don't feel the need to "know who I am"? I feel like the more I "know" about myself, the more disappointed, crappy, or confused I feel. I just noticed how many habits of mine have changed since freshman year, for better and for worse. And I know how hard I tried not to change, how hard I tried to stay carefree, confident, silly, idealistic, confident, random. But no matter what boundaries I try to set for myself, I really have no control over who I am.

There's all these words in the English language that people affix to their names to form a personality, almost like a charm bracelet. It's like.... "creative," *snap* it's attached! "nice," "smart," "optimstic" and there you go, it's a personality! Here's the problem: if you try to adhere to the demands of a specific personality, you will go insane. For example... if I tried to be nice and optimstic 100% of the time, what would happen to the mean and cynical thoughts that pervade my mind? As suppressed thoughts, would they eventually surface as a breakdown?

The path I've taken is a rather odd one. The way I act is a function of my mood and energy level. And I think that a lot of people act differently when they're sad, happy, or angry. I try to be happy as much as possible by getting enough sleep, taking vitamins, exercising, eating right. I like being happy, because I like laughing, or having a good coversation with someone. And when I'm depressed or pissed off, I tend to interact very negatively with people. I don't yell at them, it's just that when I'm talking to them I feel like I'm on a completely different planet of Blah. My body won't let me go back to Earth; I'm chained to this distant planet until the chemicals in my mind decide to rearrange themselves.

naturalrhythm @ 2006-02-18T20:30:00

2006-02-19T01:55:06Z

I went to see Dancing at Lugnasa (pronounced Loo-nah-sa) last night with my mom at Harwich Junior Theatre. It was about an Irish family during the 1930s, around the Industrial Rev. Each actor did an excellent job.

My favorite character was Uncle Jack, who spent many years at an island for Lepers and returned with dementia. At one part he was doing these tribal dances and tapping sticks together. I was laughing uncontrollably, because it reminded me of Tileston. The actor playing Uncle jack was very skilled.

Afterwards, I met with Tamara Harper, a veteran actor, director, and teacher at HJT. Al had arranged for us to meet, because I'm going to attend one of their classes next month. She was really nice, and it wasn't as awkward as I had anticipated, thankfully.

Like my mom said to me, there wasn't a dull moment during the play. I could go on and on about the set, too. HJT has some of the best sets I've ever seen, because their stage is so unique. I can't explain the stage, so you're gonna have to go there yourself! I highly recommend seeing this play, mainly because of the set, the acting, and Irish accents haha... [It runs until the 26th.]

If anyone would like to go see Our Town with me when it starts showing at HJT (3/10-4/2), comment! I'm [obviously] looking forward to that- I'm sort of obsessed with Our Town. Go here to see HJT's website.

I'm gonna be in Colorado Monday-Friday next week, I'm going too see my sister :D I can't wait to see her. It's hard with her living to far away, she's a big part of me. I don't know any other way to explain it, I know that sounds goofy.

naturalrhythm @ 2005-08-31T23:32:00

2005-09-01T03:34:14Z

"I wonder who will die." Its from June 23, 2003 when I was in the middle of reading Order of the Phoenix. Jesus that was a long time ago.

Directions...
1. Go into your LJ’s archive.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag 5 people on your friends list.

naturalrhythm @ 2005-08-30T19:56:00

2005-08-30T23:56:13Z

I found this from a year ago

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v285/annie102488/kp.jpg

Oh my.

naturalrhythm @ 2005-08-29T19:55:00

2005-08-30T00:04:01Z

Lizzie was right, writing things out helps. (Dont bother reading the cut)
Tonight I was gonna go to kickboxing but I got a call from my dad asking if I got his calls. I told him the truth that I had gotten one but I thought it was old so I deleted it. I guess he thought I was lying even though I told him my cell phone doesnt let me hear my msgs til a like a few days after theyre created because it sucks. Then we got disconnected so I called him back. I was tired and grumpy and PMSing because I had just woken up from a nap and I was all incoherent. But ya you get the idea. So it got all quiet again and I assumed he couldnt hear me so I go "Eh are we going thru another blackhole again because its getting kind of annoying..." and he got all angry and said bye. And then I felt bad and he called back and started yelling at me in a "mean tone" is how Id describe it. I was already feeling like my parents hate me. Annnnnnd he made me cry AGAIN. This is like the third time he's done this to me this month. Its very frustrating. Im so tired of it. And now Im all depressed. Oh ya and he was mad because when he asked if he could take me to American Idol Auds I was hesistating but he didnt realize it wasnt because of him its because I might not want to and I was feeling all insecure and my parents cant fathom the fact that its not all about them. They take EVERYTHING so personally. They think I dont like them or something even though I try really hard to show them I love them. But ya so my dad's feelings were hurt so he had to hurt mine and now hes probably upset that he made me cry. And then I went downstairs and my mom is "channel surfing" which should be called snail surfing or some pun like that. She wasnt raised with computers so its understandable but it still made me annoyed a little because I was cranky and had just gotten finished talking to my dad. And then she had honey dew melon and asked me why I was crying and I was about to tell her but she reeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaalllllly started to annoy the crap out of me when she was eating *I hate the sounds eating a melon makes, especially when Im in a bad mood*. So I left the room quickly faking that I had itchy bugbites- which I do lol. I have like 20 bug bites on each leg and its so itchy its painful. So now Im upstairs and she wants me to eat her swordfish and shes gonna guiltrip me if I dont and I really dont want to because I already ate and I didnt get to go to kickboxing.

OK that felt good to get out.

naturalrhythm @ 2005-08-28T12:53:00

2005-08-28T17:14:07Z

These are Yes's
I've consumed alcohol.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
I shut others out when I'm depressed.
I own something from Hot Topic. LOLZ
I own something from Pac Sun.
I own something from The Gap.
I love Disney Movies.
I do kill bugs (and I enjoy it)
I curse regularly.
I bake well.
I would wear pajamas to school (and I have :)
I own something from Abercrombie.
I am self conscious.
I like to laugh.
I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.( any bug actually)
I am really ticklish.
I bite my nails.
I am comfortable with being me.
I play video games. (but I suck)
I'm single.
Gotten lost in your city.
Saw a shooting star
Wished on a shooting star.
Saw a meteor shower.
Gone out in public in your pajamas.
Hugged a stranger.
Been in a fist fight (with my sister, it wasnt intense though)
Laughed and had milk or another drink come out of your nose.
Skipped school.
Saw a therapist
Gotten stitches.
Bitten someone.
Been to Niagara Falls.
Gotten the chicken pox.
Ridden in a taxi.
Shoplifted.
Been fired.
Had a crush on a teacher.
Been to Europe.
Driven over 400 miles in one day.
Been to Canada.
Been on a plane.
Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
Eaten sushi.
Been snowboarding.
Been skiing.
Miss someone right now.
Peed from laughing.
Had sex.
Had sex in a car.
Had sex in public.
Had sex in the shower.
Had sex in a sibling's bed.
Had sex in a parent's bed. (oh yaaaaa ;)
Read the answers of the person who sent this to you.
My answers are totally honest. (except for the sex ones haa)

And these are No's
I am for Bush.
I've run away from home.
I listen to political music.
I collect comic books.
I am shorter than 5'5.
I think I'm ugly.
I open up to others easily.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I watch the news
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I own an iPod or MP3 player.
I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
I own something I got on e-bay.
I am a sucker for hair/eyes.
I paid for that cell phone ring.
I am a sports fanatic.
I have "x"s in my screen name.
I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
I love Spam.
I have a job.
I love Martha Stewart.
I am in love with love.
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I smoke a pack a day.
I liked Perks of Being a Wallflower.
I liked Go Ask Alice.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
I eat fast food weekly.
I have many scars.
I believe in ghosts.
I see a therapist.
I take anti-depressants.
I love white chocolate.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm married.
I had a serious surgery.
I have kissed a stranger.
Been arrested.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
Made out in an elevator.
Swore at your parents.
Kicked a guy where it hurts (but I was asked to by him!)
Been close to love.
Been to a casino.
Been skydiving.
Broken a bone.
Played spin the bottle.
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
Kissed a member of the same sex.
Crashed into a friend's car.
Been to Japan.
Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.
I am bisexual or homosexual.
Stole something from your job.
Gone on a blind date.
Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
Slept with a co-worker.
Been married.
Gotten divorced.
Had children.
Been to Africa.
Been to Mexico.
Thrown up in a bar.
Been to a moto cross show.
Lost a child.
Gone to college.
Graduated college.
Done hard drugs.
Had someone cheat on you.
Taken painkillers when you didn't need them.
Smoked weed.
Snorted cocaine.
Ate shrooms.
Inhailed Nitrous. (drugs are bad mkay)
Been in love.
Woke up crying.
Cried yourself to sleep.

naturalrhythm @ 2005-08-28T12:39:00

2005-08-28T16:47:14Z

I had a dream last night that BonaFide had a house and we invited Click 5 over and they were such assholes! It was horrible. I think it took place in the future because Ben's face was all messed up from doing too many drugs. They would barely talk to us and just stood there and acted very uninterested and arrogant. I was all excited to see Ben and he got angry! He was on drugs or something. So that was my dream.

Kaitlyns party was awesome! I really thought she found out about the surprise party but she apparently had no idea. The people there were awesome too. Kaitlyns mom rented out the VFW and she and her friends and Kaitlyn's aunts helped decorate it. It looked really pretty. At one point of the night me, Katie, Lizzie, and Liz went into the bathroom to dress up as Nsync. Lizzie looked hilarious with her Superman shirt (Joey), Katie was in this baggy jersey with a bandana lmao (Justin), Liz was JC with Stubble on her face and a striped jacket, and I had Mrs. Obrien's cook jacket with heels and glasses (Chris). We came running out into this big banner that Madi made and did Here We Go and Bye Bye Bye. Then we danced and sang the night away. It was a blast. I wish I could relive that night. Kaitlyn I love you! HAPPY 16TH!!!

Whoa this is scary Im gonna be 17 soon. And so is Lizzie!

naturalrhythm @ 2005-08-26T16:51:00

2005-08-26T20:53:58Z

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Ok I still feel like crap. This is how bad life is sucking right now: Ive been reading for what seems like two days straight trying to get this paper done. I called up work and told them I wouldnt be able to come in. And guess what? Im fired. I cant say Im sorry because I was going to quit anyways but I feel like such a jerk. I really didnt mean for this to happen. And I tried really hard to get this paper done. But sometimes you cant do it. You can try as hard as you want, work for hours on end, and still not be able to please every aspect of your life. It was either AP English or The Fudgery and seriously there was no decision. It doesnt change the fact that I feel horrible and worthless and caddy. It doesnt change the fact that Im going to have people hating me when I go in there tomorrow to get my check. And glaring at me making me feel worse. Sometimes I feel like dropping into a hole like the Invisible Man and burning all the papers around me. Including this one.

naturalrhythm @ 2005-08-25T10:00:00

2005-08-25T13:59:29Z

Alright I dont care if you agree with me but for some reason Lizs dad reminds me of a younger Kurt Russel and her mom reminds me of Meryl Streep.

Edit: All this reading is driving me insane, if you couldnt already tell

taken from KT

2005-08-25T13:51:55Z

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest:

You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.

At Your Lowest:

You feel in a slump and lack creativity.

In Love:

You tend to be many people's ideal partner.

How You're Attractive:

You make people feel confident and accepted.

Your Eternal Question:

"What Impression Am I Giving?"

What's Your Power Color?